Today is the 3rd March 2014.
I did it. I finally did it because I've had enough. Day one starts today... 3rd March 2014. And god knows when he would realizes what I've done.
What was I angry at? I was angry at how you still got the cheek to post on Facebook telling everyone how last year's full marathon was your 'first and last' and you're not sure if you're stopping. What? So you think that it's okay to just tell me something and forget about it or take back your words just like that? And you had to make it worse thinking it was okay to like Yam's status or photo or whatever shit it is. If you wanna tell me something then make sure you keep to your words or don't regret one day I'll do the same to you.
If all these happened and I'm not mad then I'll have no fucking dignity. But no, that's not the case.
I'll just pretend to smile and you'll believe that my anger is dismissed. Like I said, pointless to argue, so why say it? It's not like I haven't brought it up before. We've argued about it many times. So what's the point of saying it when the same things will happen again?
Monday, March 03, 2014
Sunday, March 02, 2014
Today is the 2nd March 2014. I have been back on blogging quite often now, haven't I?
Boy, is that a good sign or not, you tell me.
Things have been quite different now, I felt it... I no longer care as much, because I gave up a huge part of expectation. Is that giving up? Or is that really letting you be happy at what you do.
At this rate, I can guarantee you that we are not gonna have any children. Because you are always immersed in your own activity, the games and texts on the phone, the runs you go for, the social activity you engage to somehow try and score a promotion. Yes, you got a life, and I'm now telling you to wake up or stay in your dreams forever.
Our interaction a day totals up to less than one hour. When was the last time I argued about little things? That was so long ago, but recently I look at you and I thought, 'it's pointless to argue anymore, everything will just be the same after the arguement and I'm only making myself angry for things that will never change'. I would rather stick to doing my own things.
And I'm gonna tell you that I don't intend to have kids after 30. We have six years from now to work on it or you can forget about being a father.
Yes, I am harsh. But goddamn it, so am I trying to be realistic with you.
Deal with it.
Boy, is that a good sign or not, you tell me.
Things have been quite different now, I felt it... I no longer care as much, because I gave up a huge part of expectation. Is that giving up? Or is that really letting you be happy at what you do.
At this rate, I can guarantee you that we are not gonna have any children. Because you are always immersed in your own activity, the games and texts on the phone, the runs you go for, the social activity you engage to somehow try and score a promotion. Yes, you got a life, and I'm now telling you to wake up or stay in your dreams forever.
Our interaction a day totals up to less than one hour. When was the last time I argued about little things? That was so long ago, but recently I look at you and I thought, 'it's pointless to argue anymore, everything will just be the same after the arguement and I'm only making myself angry for things that will never change'. I would rather stick to doing my own things.
And I'm gonna tell you that I don't intend to have kids after 30. We have six years from now to work on it or you can forget about being a father.
Yes, I am harsh. But goddamn it, so am I trying to be realistic with you.
Deal with it.